A lot of things are happening

October 7th, 2012

My schedule has been pretty hectic lately so I haven't been able to post much.  However, I found some extra time to squeeze in this blog post, so here we go.

First of all, I took part in a campaign for a role in the school's Leadership Council (as Arts Commissioner). I made posters, campaigned and even wrote a speech. However, my competition was very strong and I ended up losing. In the back of my mind there was a voice saying that I didn't have a chance at winning, however this time I decided to listen to that positive voice that said "there's always a chance.". My other competitors happened to be my best friends, Kia and Josh, who are both remarkably talented in the art field. It was a really hard thing for me to do and as I was giving my speech I felt like I was going to pass out. And after a panic attack and a short revelation, I realized that I just overcame one of my greatest fears, public speaking. I did something that I was never able to do before. Stand up and give a speech to my peers. Although it disappointed me a lot to lose, I feel happy for Kia and Josh that they won.

My school work load piled up on me again, however I was able to conquer it. I had to teach the class about New criticism. I felt as though I did okay, however I did see room for improvement in my presentation. Next, I got a 98% on my math test. I ended up losing 1 mark for not rounding to the nearest decimal place which irritated me. But nonetheless, I am still extremely happy with that mark. On the Biology front, on my quiz I got an 84%, a relatively good mark, but after I looked over my mistakes I realized that I could have done so much better. I just finished my Unit Test on Friday, so i am still waiting for that to get marked. I know I didn't do as well on it like I did on the quiz because of the fact that I blanked and panicked (like I end up doing on all my tests).


In addition, I had a reality check regarding life after High School. I realized after our University Information Night that post-secondary education is extremely expensive and that the #1 reason why people don't pursue University is the costs. That's why I figured that I need to start focusing on the bigger picture, University. I don't have any money saved for University (maybe some from a savings account from my parents) and I estimated my first year costs to total around $18 000, maybe even more. I am hoping that I will receive bursaries and scholarships to help me financially, but I know that I will still have a lot of fees to pay. Also, that you have to plan far ahead in advance when it comes to University. We have to start applying for different Universities and programmes come November 1st. I haven't even established living arrangements, more or less Universities. I have looked at many different Universities in Canada and I found a couple that appeal to me, however I need to narrow down my choices because my list is starting to grow. I am thinking on applying to Trent, Dalhousie and Guelph, however I am still making final decisions , I even still need to get my Social Insurance Number. On that note, I am planning on getting a part-time job in order to help with the costs of University.


On an unrelated school note, my mother just left to go to Beirut, Lebanon last night in order to save some animals. One is a dog who has a broken spine and needs a wheelchair. The other is a dog who was shot and finally a kitten who was abused and needs a double leg amputation. Her flight was from Montreal to Paris, then Paris to Beirut. She ended up getting there around 6:00am today and she left at 5:30pm last night. I feel bad for her because it's a long trip, she's missing Thanksgiving dinner with us and on top of it all she is not a good flyer. She has done deployments many times before, however the only difference is that this time she is in another continent. She's only stayed in Canada and the U.S (hence, Hurricane Katrina, the Missouri flooding and Husky rescue in Quebec) and she even expressed that going to a place like Beirut scares her. Just like it scares all of us. So far, I do miss her even though it has only been about 28 hours, but I have a little bit of separation anxiety when it comes to being with my mother and I can't stand it when she's not here. However, she reassured us that she was safe and says she'll be back by Wednesday.

 I just find it so amazing how far someone's passion will take them. Well, I guess if you find something you really love to do, why wouldn't you go to great lengths in order to fulfill it? I hope that one day I will become that passionate and dedicated like my mom and find great happiness in what I do. Because I find if you are not happy with your career, there is no point pursuing it. That's the reason why I decided to become a writer, because I realized that nothing else would make me happier, Writing is not only a hobby, but a passion.